I woke up this morning full of doubt, worry & unbelief. I am the type of person that likes to have a plan, and the unknown worries me. I am down to what feels like the wire and God has still not revealed a plan to me. Doesn't He know I NEED a plan? I feel like so much is still up in the air and it is stressing me out.
I have about 4 months until I leave for the race. This weekend I am moving out of the house I have been renting so that I can save money. But that of course has created more "problems". I have been praying since I put my notice in for God to guide me through this and to help me make the right decisions. Now here I am about to move out and I still feel very confused and I'm afraid of making any wrong decisions. I don't have time to face the consequences of wrong decisions right now.
I allowed the negative thoughts to swirl around in my head for a little bit this morning, but as tears began to fill my eyes I stopped myself from going any further down that road. I know from past experiences that doubt, worry & unbelief are poisonous. They have led me into many downward spirals before.
I came across a post online that really helped me in that moment: "Try praying this prayer in the midst of your struggles today, 'God, I love You. I don’t love this situation. But I love You. Therefore, I have everything I need to keep putting one foot in front of the other and walk through until I get to the other side of this.” -Lysa TerKeurst.
So, that's what I did!!!
After I prayed, a sense of peace came over me and I was reminded of these 4 things.
1) "Be still and know that I am God" (Psalm 46:10).
2) Have faith like a child.
3) Fear is lack of faith.
4) "Delight yourself in the Lord" (Psalm 37:4).
I am reminded that God's got this! I need to just keep doing what is in front of me that needs to be done and stop stressing about what my next step is. Just because I can't see the plan, doesn't mean that there isn't one. I have to trust and have faith. That is what is required of me. Not figuring it all out.
Day by day, step by step it will all come together. I just have to stay focused on God and not my problems. I have 2 choices, to either let my problems be bigger than my God by focusing on them, or let my God be bigger than my problems and focus on Him.
