What about God’s plan is deniable?

I am guilty and ashamed of continually desiring my plan over His

The knowledge of God’s good plan for me dwells in my head

But I wish to tie an anchor to the fact

Force it to sink one foot lower into my heart

And remain there.

Forever.

 

I doubt that God will deny me the desires of my heart

Disbelief

My face turns red, I’m embarrassed and ashamed

 

My friend, future preacher, and fellow squad mate Timothy talked of his greatest fear in a sermon,

To get to heaven, stand before Jesus

Hear Jesus congratulate him for all he did on Earth

And then turn, pull down a long scroll, and say, “If you had walked out My will for you, you would’ve done all of that AND MORE.”

That fear, immediately became mine as well.

 

So I’m currently stepping into a season of lassoing the simple fact in my brain,

that God has an amazing plan for me individually,

and dragging it down into the depths of my heart 

To dwell until the day I stand before God.

 

What does that look like?

I have no idea

Facts I do know- that will one day reside in my heart:

God’s plan is better than any I could dream up, 

My life will be the farthest thing from normal,

Man most likely will not approve and that’s okay, 

His plan for me is perfect,

and finally, life on Earth is short,

But I am guaranteed eternity with Him.