These pictures are a little snapshot in to my life this week.
The journal entry I actually wrote on April 22, 2014; just over 5 months ago. I was going through my journal yesterday and I found this little gem. I was kinda surprised by my eagerness and zeal that seemed to exude from the page. I don’t think that I am less excited about going on the race, I just think I am burnt out from working too much and from not getting enough sleep and from support raising. Seeing this entry was encouraging and reminded me that I am allowed to be excited. It also reminded me that I WANT this! “Send me!!” and “I will go!!” This is still the prayer of my heart and will probably be until I am on the plane leaving.
The picture of my silly face is from a wedding I went to on Saturday. Being at the wedding, brought up a lot of emotions. Good and bad. I was absolutely excited to see my friend get married to his wonderful bride!! Definitely the highlight of my month! But as with most weddings, I saw a lot of friends I hadn’t seen in awhile. This was SO cool and I was super stoked to see them! However, I feel like I love people so deeply and miss them so greatly that when I see them again I am reminded of all the great times that I had with them. This leaves me feeling kinda empty, or lacking something. I am still kinda wrestling with the Lord about these feelings. I definitely don’t have it figured out; when I do I’ll let you know. In the past, I have coped with these feelings by being genuinely grateful for the time I did have with those people and the fact that it was a gift from God that I even knew them.
The picture of my dirty feet is from my church picnic on Sunday. I am fairly new to the church and have had a difficult time getting connected to people/community because of my wonky work schedule. However, on Sunday I felt home. I hadn’t been to a church picnic in 8 years. I haven’t felt the camaraderie of meeting, eating and playing together as a CHURCH BODY since I was 18. I guess I didn’t realize how much my heart longed for it until it was happening. My feet got dirty from playing volleyball and flag football with my new church family. While playing, I kept thinking to myself “This is awesome” and “I miss this so much” and “I feel like a kid again.” I met a ton of new people and got to connect more with people I already knew.
Snapshots.
That’s all. 😀
Cheers!
