Currently listening to : Where we gonna go from here by Mat Kearney
Current location: Kitale, Kenya
Weather: Breezy, about 65 degrees, thunder storms
Rest Day Details: Hot chocolate and watching old episodes of American tv
Something happened this month that just snapped inside of me. Usually every mid month I have some sort of new revelation about myself. This month I have been noticing that I am really happy with the person I have become while on the Race. So much has changed inside of my heart. I’m now a raw person, someone who is not afraid to cry in front of people, someone who goes up to people and encourages them with a word, someone who speaks up for themselves or for someone else. I still have a lot of growth and refinement ahead but STILL! It has been a long journey in life and a long 4 months, but I can finally say… I am ready to take my place as a Daughter of the King.
Accepting my place is kind of scary. It means accepting a future for myself that really doesn’t have much to do with me as much as it has to do with Him. God has shown me lots of things the past 4 months that I really don’t understand. He has put me in circumstances that I walk away from with little to no understanding. He has put people in my life through the villages, on my squad, and on my team that challenge me, awaken me, and ultimately love me. It really blows my mind sometimes when I stop to think that I’m in some remote place that isn’t even on the map all the while life as usual ticks on by back home in America. And to think the world is being changed and shaken up here in Northern Kenya. But I guess that is the way my life is supposed to be right now, remote and challenging.
I am at a place in my life and on my Race that is quite okay being and doing whatever it is that God wants me to do. If that means the Lord sends me home tomorrow, so be it. If that means that God sends me to the Serengeti next month, GREAT! If it means that I’m going to open up an orphanage to love on kids that I call mine in a village with no name on a map, HALLELUJAH! Amen! For real… I am all in with God. I am a Daughter of the King and who am I to come up with my own life and plan it? I want God to use me until I am all worn out. I may have wished every second of walking through the red dirt this past week that I was on one of those boda-bodas wizzing by but at least at the end of the day I knew I was a slave to righteousness (a phrase my bestfriend Payton uses quite often).
All I know is yet again, I’m having revelations in my life near the end of another month. Life is grand. I love my team, they call out the Jesus in me. I love my squad leaders…. I love them even more when they burn through 6 episodes on a rest day to get a little piece of American television fix!
I just know that coming home today back to Kitale after a week away serving in another village… well it really did feel like home. Coming home to my cockroach infested, half trickle shower, and sometimes very smelly house and seeing orphan kids run around….well it really did feel like home to take my place as a Daughter of the King!
I may not always agree or like what the Lord gives me visions of but who am I to understand anything? I asked God to use me for the Kingdom and His purpose. If I need to take my place as a Daughter of the King and do what He asks just to bring a little piece of heaven down here to rain on this village and the kids, so be it!
Ephesians 3:20-21 says
20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
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