I didn’t survive Training Camp

I could sit here and tell you how I was wrecked at camp, how I struggled with squad acceptance, how I sobbed in the arms of strangers, how I didn’t get much sleep, or how I thought for most of the time I wasn’t worthy enough to be there, standing amongst these amazing people on H squad.

OR

I could tell you that I had the most amazing time of my life. 

That my view on everything that had to do with the Church was shattered and built back up in a way that only God could do!

I could tell you that I WILL NEVER go back to my old ways of worship which was quietly bowing my head and not letting my inner crazy for Jesus love come out. I can’t imagine not rocking out and putting my hands up and singing at full volume as loud as my lungs could sing! 

I could tell you that I slept outside under the stars by a fire and loved every minute of it. 

I could tell you that I only took 3 showers and wore most of the same clothes 2, 3 or 4 times over and it didn’t phase me.

 I could tell you I only looked in a mirror a few times and it was normal. 

I could tell you that the last thing I wanted to do was hear tongues or have visions but both of those things happened to me (hearing someone else speak in tongues over me and then myself have visions) and it was the most incredibly peaceful thing I have ever heard in my entire life. 

I could tell you that Starbucks coffee never tasted so good in my entire life on the way back from training camp.

I could tell you how a few of my squadmates and I thought seriously for 10 minutes on sneaking and ordering a pizza. (we didn’t, but the thought of it was sooo tempting)

 BUT SERIOUSLY, God wrecked me! He took down all my walls all my insecurities and exposed them, let me grieve them, let me get over them, and then let me process them and ENJOY them and celebrate who I am and why I love JESUS. 

I could tell you I prayed for an all girls team but ended up on a team with 3 guys, 3 incredible brothers who I’m so excited to learn from, and 3 sisters that are true women of God! 

Enjoy some random pictures from camp! 

H Squad=Squad War Champions!