Sorry it’s been a long while since my last post… I’ve been waiting, hoping for some inspirational message to come to me that I can share with all of you, but since that never came, I decided I would just share some of my recent thoughts with you.
The June team left a little over a week ago to start their World Race adventure. Seeing them leaving made the fact that I am leaving even more real. It was weird and even a little scary to read their blogs talking about last minute preparations and then follow them through the process of arriving at their first location, knowing that in less than 3 months, I will be going through the same thing.
One way that Satan has always attacked me is through self-confidence. He likes to make me think I’m not good enough, which keeps me from doing the good things that God has intended for me. I hear him whispering in my ear: you’re not good enough for this trip… you don’t know enough scripture… you don’t pray well enough… you are too shy… you can’t be gone from home for a year… you don’t have enough faith… you just can’t do it christie, you aren’t good enough…
The other day I
was driving on my way to church and I was listening to a Christian radio station. The song “Voice of Truth” came on by Casting Crowns. I started listening to the lyrics and I felt like they pertained to this situation.
“But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I’ve tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me, time and time again, ‘Boy, you’ll never win!’
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, ‘do not be afraid!’
And the voice of truth says, ‘this is for My glory!’
Out of all the voices calling out to me, I will
choose to listen and believe the voice of truth”
I just thought it was pretty cool to hear those lyrics and be reminded that these thoughts are not from God, but they are from Satan trying to make me feel like I’m not good enough, but that I can choose to believe the voice of truth intead. Deuteronomy 31:8 says to have no fear because, “it is the Lord your God who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you.” God has already gone and prepared the way for us (wherever it is that we are going!).
Psalm 73:8 says “my flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. ” Where my strength ends (and it doesn’t go very far!) God’s begins. My flesh will fail. My heart will fail. I am not good enough. But God is. He is my strength, he is what makes me good enough for this race. He chose me for it, and he will bring me through it in an amazing way. I am excited to see all that He will use me, just a regular joe, to further His Kingdom.
Some other lyrics I thought were cool and got me even more excited to go….
If you ask me to run and carry your light into foreign land
If you ask me to fight, deliver your people from Satan’s hand
To reach out with Your hands
To learn through Your eyes
To love with the love of a Savior
To feel with Your heart
And to think with Your mind
I’d give my last breath for Your glory
September world racers… I look forward to serving alongside you all and getting to know you better as brothers and sisters in Christ. God is going to do some amazing things, and we get to be a part of it.. how awesome is that!! We are blessed!
