Hello ok so I’ve pretty much felt like I’ve reached a point where I’m actually going backwards insted of moving foewards. Kindof like I’ve given up on trying with my team cuse we talk about change all the time but nothing actually happens so I’ve retreted and kindof gone into hybernation of just staying where I’m at and not really caring anymore not only about them but life on the race in general 🙁 (NO BUENO!!! The race isn’t finished yet Christi-An you have to keep racing until you get to the finish!!!) and I’ve just really been missing home and friends and family, but I didn’t really relize where I was until last friday when I went back to the very beging of my special Notebook of very important things that I started at tranning camp and so this is what I read……………
What one sacrifice do you lack to enter into the kingdome of God????
Is it worth it to you to keep holding on to it??????
Would you be willing to exchange that in return for God’s Will??
(Like Abraham and his son Isac)
(Like Abraham and his son Isac)
Is it worth it??
I don’t want to bring me to the world I want to bring Jesus to the world I want to bring the Kingdome to the world not Christi-An!!!!!!
It’s the goodness of God that leads us to repentnance not the, you are a sinner condemnation that draws us in it’s His goodness His love!!!!!
It’s Gods Love that draws people to repentnace not His judgment!!!
Romans 7:24 Oh what a miserable person I am! who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin?
‘Sunday Febuary 13th 2011′ Ecuador WR day 37′
Ha ha what a question I have stumbled apon!!!! Oh what a miserable person I am!! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by so much sin??…Only GOD can and no one else! Ok so I’ve come to the relization that the reason I feel like my team isn’t united is cuz of me, I haven’t cared, I haven’t tryed, I haven’t gone all in, I haven’t stoped thinking about myself, and I haven’t stoped striving to be know and understood by my teammates I’ve been so focused on myself and own desires and what I wanted to gain from this World Race and I’ve been so dissapointed cuz I’ve only been here for myself!!! so…………………This Sunday morning our 2nd in Ecuador at church I have had several things that have brought me to this point,that now I have decided to change my thinking!! I asked God to help me stop only thinking about myself. To stop trying to be understood to put my teamates before myself, to try and get to know them to really care and to really try to get to know them. To realize that I didn’t bring myself on this trip, I didn’t provide the funds for myself to come on this trip!! I didn’t have anything to do with me being right here in this seat, in this church, in this country Ecuador, with this family the Amores, and with this team of 6 other girls!!!! It had nothing to do with me!! I had no say, I had no power, I had nothing to do with it!!!!! It was all God’s doing, hahaha Wow and yet I try to think that, oh yah it was all me ha ha!!! You couldn’t have said no even if you wanted too!! Your not here because you wanted to be, your not here for adventure, your not here to travel the world, your here because God wants you to be!!!!!!!!! Your here to Gloryfiy Him!! Your here to be changed, your here to love your teamates, your here to know how much God LOVES you and to learn how to love yourself, your here to learn how to live for something other than you!!! To live in the FREEDOM of God’s never ending Love, Grace, Mercy, and Joy!!!!!!! So hurry up what are you waiting for? God I need your help, I want to feel your presence in this life, I want to know the Holy Spirit the way that I know you God and your son Jesus, because it’s 3 in one. All my life I’ve only had God and Jesus, but I’ve never known the 3rd. I’ve never lived with all 3. I’ve never fully known God and His Love!!!!!
God this World Race has nothing to do with Me (Christi-An) But has
Everything to do with YOU and Your GLORY !!!!!!!
Everything to do with YOU and Your GLORY !!!!!!!
Yah so I wrote that 4 months ago and I feel like I learned a lot since then but I just got stuck in a rut again and needed to read this again and figured it would be a good blog reminder as well!! So yah !! I’m climbing out of that rut into my word of the month………..
FREEDOME ! ! !
