At this very moment, I am experiencing culture shock.
I am listening to the Christian Radio station, KLOVE on the computer in Thailand while my dad is down the hall and my boyfriend is down the street. I have not seen either of these people in eight months. I am amidst other racers and their parents whom I have never met, but after three days feel like we have known each other for years. I am eating peppermint paddies and peanut butter cliff bars in my bedroom, but I had green curry with chicken for dinner and bananas in coconut milk for dessert. I am packing up clothes to send home with my dad, while repacking my pack for Fall/Winter in Romania and Moldova (after 8 months of summer). I am planning things for after the race, but I still have three more months left of the race. For four days I will be with my boyfriend and my dad, but then won't see them again for another three months. I am with the people who make me think of home, but my "home" (team) from the last 5 months is in Malaysia doing ministry. I will be rejoining them in just a few days, but I just want to stay with my dad and boyfriend. But I want to be with them in the states and not Thailand, but I don't actually know what the states looks like to me anymore. I am stuck between my worlds colliding and it is VERY confusing.
However, in the midst of it all, I am reminded that it is GOOD. He is good. He wouldn't put me in this situation if it wasn't for a purpose and if it wouldn't help me. This is the exact moment God has planned for my life.
I am the luckiest girl in the world to have both of the most important men in her life with her for a few days at the same time. I will be the luckiest girl in the world to see the rest of my friends and family in December. I will be the luckiest girl in the world to be able to serve my team and ministry contacts for another three months in Malaysia, Moldova and Romania. I am the luckiest girl in the world to be able to experience this piece of culture shock of home right now in preparation for what is to come.
Yes I am confused right now, but I am praising God in the confusion. He loves me and knows what is best for me.
Thank you, God, for giving me moments of confusion that allow me to see you in a new way.
