No more walking in worry, I am done with that son of a gun. Let me tell you how I got there! It’s a journey so prepare your self for a ride. Don’t be afraid to comment on this if you had break through too! We’re a family so let’s encourage each other and let us know we’re not alone.
So there was something weighing me down a lot, but I didn’t know what it was exactly at all. I just thought it was me that’s just the way I am. I walked through life thinking this was me for so long! It wasn’t though.
What it was – was the devil using me against myself, because Jesus has taken the weapons from him and he has given them to us so the only person that can use them is us…ourselves. That’ s where deception comes in.
For me I went through life thinking that I couldn’t trust. This came from people failing me all through my life. Not having a father, getting put in foster care, watching my mother be beaten growing up, life was hard.
I trained my self from a very young age to not trust people and to just expect the worst things to happen so that way when/if it fails, it wouldn’t hurt as much. I did this so unknowingly. I had no idea that’s what I did.
I always put myself in the outcast position, I always placed my self on the outer rims of things, not always physically but mentally I did. So from the beginning of things I had already expected things to go wrong! Or people to go against me.
I had this huge spirit of rejection, unworthiness and doubt upon me. The devil took that and had me because he doesn’t have weapons so he uses us against ourselves. Stuff like insecurity, pride, shame, distrust, rejection, unworthiness, doubt, and many other things.
To keep us from embracing the father fully, I am convicted that the devil doesn’t want us to be away from God, he just doesn’t want us to move forward with having him fully. I am still coming to know who I really am in a sense.
Please check yourself and if there is any darkness or shadows its not God but it’s the devil. Cast him out! You are… we are Sons and Daughters of a King! We have authority and power. No one can do it for you. You have to do it yourself. Get it done. Embrace him fully and live with him always.
