Blog time once again! God is doing some amazing things constantly with me. The newest ish thing is the awareness of his presence! Okay so here we go I might get carried away, there will probably be many bunny trails but hang in there it will all come together at the end!
For months now, I have been trying to bring myself more in line with Papa (That’s what I call God so there is no confusion!) So to do that I started to proclaim in my life every day, in ways like; if people asked me what I was doing it became my first response to say just being in the presence of God! It had a lot of meaning for me when I said it. It really started making me think of things a lot more, and way more in depth.
As I started doing this my mindset began to see things completely different. I started to see his heart for his people, I felt him completely different, I heard him clear. I was just with him more and I could see it with every step. I won’t lie I thought I might be crazy.
Bunny trail 1: For a while now, I’ve said I am obedient to God. I’ve said that I will go where he tells me when he tells me and I did. So in the last 4 months I’ve been everywhere it feels- Oklahoma, Texas, Georgia. Home is Oklahoma I went there coming off my race.
I was there for a week before I heard a voice saying go to College Station Texas, I didn’t know why and I didn’t have the money to do so. Trying to be in the presence of God more I did what he said and went. I had 100$ the exact amount for a bus ticket there. I had a friend there who was willing to give me a place to stay for free and pay for everything I need until I got a job. Asking for nothing in exchange except for me to come. God is so good!
Bunny trail 2: This is really a continuation of the first one. I didn’t get to go home for Thanksgiving, which was kind of sad, but I had some amazing time with just doing that week of being alone. I wanted to go home for Christmas though, but I didn’t have the money at all to do so, so I started to pray.
I want to be a man of Faith so when I prayed I knew God would show up but I had no idea how. From College Station I need to go to Oklahoma 8hrs on bus it was 16hrs, God paid for that ticket, from home I needed to go to Atlanta Georgia for Passion Conference and Project Search Light, God paid for that plane ticket!
By me just walking with him and going where he was telling me to go he has provided, he has shown up! He is so faithful! These things plus so much more has happened and it’s because I try just sitting in his presence with him and staying there. Bunny trails are done for now.
Being back in community with World Race, its causing me to be Gods presence even more for some reason. I am doing the Worship track here. Three weeks ago, Papa blew my mind again, I had that moment where it just clicked you know what I am talking about. And your mind is just blown.
He showed me he is my best friend, my father, and the one person that will never leave me! He is always, He is ALL THE TIME, Ever Present Ever Constant, and it is so crazy. I don’t think we really understand these phrases, these words at all.
Think about it… what in this world are these words really? What is all the time or constant? Nothing! Everything is constantly changing its never the same for very long. The season the weather, grass, trees, colors seem to change, the sky, taste of things, the way things look, nothing ever looks or tastes or feels the same after a period of time.
With that in mind how do we really understand his consistency? We can’t comprehend him or his presence. That’s something that some of you and me know but we really don’t know at all. You know? It one of those things that we say we get, but honestly until the three weeks ago I had no idea that I didn’t understand at all.
Now I just stand with the Father constantly. I never leave him. He never leaves me, you can’t describe it better than “ He is always walking beside us.” That is truth! That can never be taken from us. He is our Father. We don’t have to have a phone to call him though; we just have to talk to him.
He gives us everything we need when we need it. He never fails us. It is absolutely blowing my mind. I can’t understand this at all. But it is really true. I can call upon him and there he waits for me the whole time! That’s our Papa! 24/7, all day every day he never leaves, we are just not always aware of him. Lets be aware!
