one specific thing has deflected me "off course".
it's called sin. and mine is terrible.
and i feel like God won't touch me with a 10-foot pole, if i stay where i am spiritually.

so i do not regret letting you know, because i have to keep telling myself: 

maybe it's what we all need.
broken hearts. 
some holy discontentment.

i'll take it! it's what God wants for me and that's good enough.