let's get this conversation out of our systems:
"on the World Race."
"do you have time for that? aren't you a vet tech?"
"yes, but that's just my occupation."
"exactly. you are scheduled to work in the morning at 8am"
"well, i don't launch tomorrow. i leave in January."
"good for you. traveling during a month with no major holidays is smart."
"actually, i'll miss most all the major ones, including my birthday. i'll be back in November."
"does your mom know?!"
feel better? me too.
six months ago, at the start of the new year, i would have told you that my life mostly made sense. i was at point A trying to navigate to point B. for an unreasonable amount of time, i was – in school, then out of school, spending money, or working and building my savings (sometimes this was on repeat, other times on shuffle). point B is on the horizon. i could see it. truly, the rest of my life was a short distance down the road. all i had to do is follow the predetermined directions to the tee.
but then, i heard about the World Race. from my good friend Google.
i remember thinking:
pssst. go.
"i can't . i'm too late."
goooo.
"this is crazy. i can't. i have real life to think about."
goooooo.
"but i have to do this one thing in august and this other thing in september. and also…"
…
"God, stop playing. You meant no, right?"
Go.
the next five months, i was restless with no relief. i just did not believe that my desire to drop everything i planned to do over the next two years was of the Lord. in fact, i knew it was me. all me. i assured myself i had made the whole thing up in my head. the idea of the World Race was too outlandish, too risky, too long… this dream was becoming a nightmare! talk about desperation. i think i was on a fast every few weeks. i read as many World Racer blogs focused on its diffifulty as possible. i read through a stack of Christian books for guidance. and, i emailed/talked to three older siblings in Christ who had been there, done that for advice. and when all my scrambling and denial and crying was finished, i opened my Bible. yup, God's Word was my last resort. and of course, the answer was already clear:
act like it. Pursue the things over which Christ presides.
Don't shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you.
Look up and be alert to what is going on around Christ – that's where the action is.
See things from His perspective."
Colossians 3:1-2 (MSG)
my mind is set.
my heart is receptive.
i will never be the same.
follow me as i follow Him!
