.a world without dreams is a world without horses, soccer, & Tae Kwon Do.

 .a dreamer.
 
I always have been.
 
I grew up dreaming of being a jockey—my stick horse named “Star” and I made an incredible team until I graduated to a real horse, at which point my dreams changed from being a jockey to being an eventer.
 
“Rosy” was a sweet-spirited pony whose sole goal in life was to out-smart me. She did- for a while, but, thanks to the perseverance of my mother, I kept getting back on  
 
Then, soccer entered my life. It wasn’t long before I was dreaming of game-winning goals and World Cup’s. As the years passed and as my drive and work ethic developed, I was fourteen and entertaining offers from college coaches. Somewhere along the line, I was forced into starting Tae Kwon Do, and as my competitive nature in the sport increased—a decision had to be made—soccer or Tae Kwon Do?
 
I sacrificed soccer and chose Tae Kwon Do. And it became my life. All I dreamed of was an Olympic gold medal—a gold medal that was easily within my grasp. Every hour I trained brought me closer to the realization of my dream.
 
And, then, the unthinkable happened and a severe injury destroyed my Tae Kwon Do career (for the full story read "Take My Feet…").
 
God, in His mercy, drew near to me when I drew near to Him (James 4:8) and new dreams were placed upon my heart. Dreams of a life spent serving the Lord, dreams of being a woman who has been conformed into the image of Her maker, dreams of orphans housed, Christ-followers walking in maturity, lives transformed through focused relationships, and the Lord’s glory revealed.
 
To be truthful, I haven’t known what to do with these dreams.
 
My old self keeps wanting to work to achieve, but my new self knows that just living is the path.
 
How hard it is to just be! To just be and allow the Spirit to work through you! How very contrary to our earthly nature!
 
I’m not saying to sit in complacency, in passivity. I believe the Kingdom of the Lord is a Kingdom of action. Yet, I am saying that resting at the feet of our Beloved is where we should reside. That our own strength is not the path to the fulfillment of dreams—be they worldly or Godly.
 
I needed to dwell on this today.
 
The past four months have been months where the Lord has placed visions upon my heart – visions and dreams of my role in the Kingdom here on this earth.
 
These dreams are my future.
 
My immediate response is to work to achieve. But, I cast that aside. Instead, I will sit at the feet of my Beloved, soaking in His presence and just be. From there flows all that is needed. Yes, blood, sweat, and many, many tears will be invested in these dreams. Sacrifices and unstoppable drive as well. Yet, I no longer dream by myself. My dreams are from the Maker of dreams and He will accomplish- through me- what He has prepared long ago for me to do.