This month my team is at an Iris Ministries base in Dondo, Mozambique. If you don’t know what Iris is you should definitely check it out.
We have a lot of different opportunities this month to reach out to the community- hospital visits, prison ministry, church/evangelizing in the local villages, a widows feeding program and pretty much whatever else we feel the Spirit leading us to.
So I’m going to do something I usually don’t, and that is to give you a glimpse into my head and heart.
Last month was a really hard month for me because I was really, really homesick. I have 3 little sisters and one of them got married last month. When I left in January they weren’t engaged yet, but were planning on doing it sometime next year. Of course, plans ALWAYS change.
So I was missing my little sisters wedding, and just missing my family in general. There were a lot of times I wasn’t really enjoying the ministry, because I was SO busy focusing on ME.
It wasn’t until a few days ago when it really hit me… that I am still SO selfish.
I’m on this AMAZING journey for 11 months. Going out and meeting people and telling them about God’s love, and all the while I’m struggling to accept His love for myself.
God can still use me, all these months He has been. He brought me here for a reason.
But, He is still waiting for me to truly die to myself.
To stop letting the fear hold me back from trusting Him. To know that He can take care of me 100%, and take me farther than I could ever take myself.
I don’t understand Him or His ways, but I do know that He always has the BEST in store for His children. His Beloved. And He has put heavenly gifts inside of me that I am ready to embrace.
So I’m choosing RIGHT NOW, to stop focusing so inwardly.
To put a death to the vicious cycle of comparison.
To put to death the fear of man.
To DECLARE the TRUTH of who I am in Christ…
-I will die to myself and carry my cross DAILY
-I am a woman who KNOWS God’s Love and lives in it
-My hope is found in Christ
-I am full of Grace
-My God is bigger than my circumstances
-He richly supplies all my financial needs
-My identity is found in Christ alone
-I will put others above myself
-I am FULL of JOY
-God is my Strength
-My heart is focused on things above and not things of this world
– I will be a Proverbs 31 woman
-my beauty shines from within!
THIS is who I am and strive to be more and more every day.
Love you all so much!!!
