"Don't be afraid to fight with God. He's a big God, he can take it. Just make sure you never walk away from him"
So wow! I need to get better at writing blogs! I am very sorry i haven't been keeping up but I PROMISE I will get better about it! The one word to describe what has been going on lately is CRAZY!!! Trying to wrap my brain around what God is doing in my life is hysterical. I can just see him sitting there watching me and laughing saying, "Chelsea why are you even trying to comprehend? Just listen to me and do what i tell you to. Know that I am always here and I'll never leave you."
After getting back from Training Camp, I was going through a ton of emotions: happy, sad, anxious, nervous, excited, scared, and probably anything else you could think of. Being home felt weird to me, I felt like something was "off". I just felt like I was going through the motions. I felt i was at the place where something was just missing.
It all started in my Wednesday night life group. One of the guys had a message that God had gave him for somebody in the group. The second the words came out of his mouth, I knew the message was for me. God is a funny guy. Since i wouldn't listen to him, he decided to get the message through my hardhead brain a different way! I am not going to lie i was a little embarrassed because he straight up called me out haha. So i just sat down and had a huge fight with God. He told me exactly what was wrong. He told me exactly what i needed to do even if I didn't want to. All he said was Let Go. I told him no that i wasnt ready. I was but i wasn't if that makes since. I was scared of what this exactly meant for me. So here I sat, fighting God until i finally said: "FINE! I am letting go of it all. I know its so hard to do, but i know its the very best thing for me to do." So I am letting go of the things that are holding me back. This is a hard thing for me to do because i have quickly found out how much i SUCK at letting things go. I know that sadly there are things and also people that i have to let go of in order to achieve my greater purpose. It has been a period of grieving for me, but I am finally at a place where I'm at total peace with it.
I am coming into a new season of my life. I know its going to probably be one of the best seasons of my life! I could not be more excited for this. Getting to this new season means so many new things in my life! I am trading everything i have: my job, pretty much all of my possessions, comforts of home, being able to see my family, sleep, my old life, and a ton more. I am trading all of that in for something MUCH GREATER! This is the season that i am going to be renewed and refreshed in my life with Jesus. I CANNOT wait to see what is in store for me in these next 11 months!
Please follow alongside with me because this isn't just my journey, it is your journey too! I just want to give a big THANK YOU to everyone who has supported me. Whether it has been financially, through prayer, through kind words, and everything in between, THANK YOU. I love yall so so much! Oh yeah, AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SUBSCRIBE!!! JUST CLICK ON THE LINK ON THE LEFT SIDE!!
"Forget what happened in the past, and do not dwell on event from long ago.
I am going to do something new. It's already happening. Don't you recognize it?" Isaiah 43: 18-19
