I'm trying.
Trying to process.
To be present.
To not get frustrated.
To not step on anyone's toes.
To be joyful.
To be encouraging.
To be helpful.
To read my bible daily.
To represent Christ.
To write meaningful blogs.
To love unconditionally.
To update everyone at home.
To continue friendships.
To not flush toilet paper.
To not complain.
To update my supporters.
To not hog the bed.
To not cry when I see a monstrous spider that could eat my brains.
I'm trying to do and be a million different things for everyone and myself.
I don't want constructive feedback.
I want to be that teammate that is always faithful, always joyful, and never complains.
I don't want my team to be upset with me.
I don't want my family to feel neglected.
I don't want my friends to feel left behind.
I don't want my supporters to think I'm not grateful.
I don't want God to stop speaking.
I don't want to cry.
I don't want to miss home.
I don't want to crave olive garden.
I want to be everything for everyone.
I want to be perfect, but I can't.
I can't do it.
I constantly frustrate my team.
I always step on the toes of the ones I love.
I accidentally flush toilet paper.
I neglect quite time with Jesus.
I neglect my friendships and my family because I'm tired.
I can't be everything, and I can't do everything.
"come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
-Matthew 11:28-29
He's not asking me to be everything, he's just asking me to be His.
Forgive me when I don't respond.
Forgive me when I frustrate you.
Forgive me when I'm thinking and not talking.
Forgive me when I cry.
Forgive me when I seem ungrateful.
God is so much bigger than my flesh.
And I'm learning how to choose the spirit.
Be patient with me as I learn and as I grow.
You being patient with me will help me be patient with myself.
I'm so freaking happy that God represents me and I don't represent myself.
I'm so happy that I'm not defined by my past.
I'm so happy that every sin that I have committed and will is already covered in his blood.
I'm so happy I'm given grace, because I constantly fail.
I'm trying.
But he has already finished my efforts.
Trying to process.
To be present.
To not get frustrated.
To not step on anyone's toes.
To be joyful.
To be encouraging.
To be helpful.
To read my bible daily.
To represent Christ.
To write meaningful blogs.
To love unconditionally.
To update everyone at home.
To continue friendships.
To not flush toilet paper.
To not complain.
To update my supporters.
To not hog the bed.
To not cry when I see a monstrous spider that could eat my brains.
I'm trying to do and be a million different things for everyone and myself.
I don't want constructive feedback.
I want to be that teammate that is always faithful, always joyful, and never complains.
I don't want my team to be upset with me.
I don't want my family to feel neglected.
I don't want my friends to feel left behind.
I don't want my supporters to think I'm not grateful.
I don't want God to stop speaking.
I don't want to cry.
I don't want to miss home.
I don't want to crave olive garden.
I want to be everything for everyone.
I want to be perfect, but I can't.
I can't do it.
I constantly frustrate my team.
I always step on the toes of the ones I love.
I accidentally flush toilet paper.
I neglect quite time with Jesus.
I neglect my friendships and my family because I'm tired.
I can't be everything, and I can't do everything.
"come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
-Matthew 11:28-29
He's not asking me to be everything, he's just asking me to be His.
Forgive me when I don't respond.
Forgive me when I frustrate you.
Forgive me when I'm thinking and not talking.
Forgive me when I cry.
Forgive me when I seem ungrateful.
God is so much bigger than my flesh.
And I'm learning how to choose the spirit.
Be patient with me as I learn and as I grow.
You being patient with me will help me be patient with myself.
I'm so freaking happy that God represents me and I don't represent myself.
I'm so happy that I'm not defined by my past.
I'm so happy that every sin that I have committed and will is already covered in his blood.
I'm so happy I'm given grace, because I constantly fail.
I'm trying.
But he has already finished my efforts.
