like, really annoyed.
Weddings.
ALL FREAKING SUMMER.
Every.single.one.of.my.friends.
I'm super happy for them,
i really, really, really, am.
It's great to fall in love
and then marry that person.
cool.
but
the pressure that is put on my shoulders,
it's freaking dumb.
It might not be spoken,
but it's implied.
If my friends arnt married, they're in long-term,
super serious, basically engaged phase.
again,
SUPER HAPPY FOR THEM.
love each of them, can't wait to
go to their wedding.
but you know what,
i'm 20 years old,
and i really want to get married,
BUT IN THE FUTURE.
not now.
I really enjoy this season that God has me in.
I really love that i'm going to be seperated from that wedding community for 11 months.
I'm really loving taking walks by myself to secluded places and just talking to Jesus.
I'm really loving the things he's teaching me, and just me.
I'm really loving that my heart isnt fighting for the attention of a human.
I'm really loving being by myself.
That isnt bad.
and i know no one thinks that's bad.
but sometimes, i think that people do.
All anyone thinks about anymore is falling in love,
getting married, and "starting their life".
You know what?
I'm starting my life right now,
because guess what,
Jesus could take me before i get married,
before i experience true love,
but, i'm okay with that.
No matter how cliche it is, his love is far more satisfying than anything i will experience in this world.
Cliche?
yes.
True?
YUP.
I'm not one of those crazy women who are super into this whole
I DONT NEED NO MAN
MEN ARE GOOD FOR NOTHING
WOMEN CAN DO ANYTHING
nope
i love men.
love them a lot.
Eventually, i'll be SUPER excited to have a partner next to me,
if God blesses me with that.
But i'm not ready,
my heart is still very selfish
and i'm still very young.
So from now on,
don't ask me about my relationship status,
and don't give me a sad look when i say i'm single.
because, it's not sad.
It's freaking great.
ok.
(not me, or my picture)
