I'm aching for the things i havent experienced yet.
I need to write these prayers down.
My heart is heavy for the people i don't know yet.
God is giving me his heart, and its hard to keep up with.
The babies-
My biggest concern, basically my sole purpose. Kids are my life, i adore them and i need them surrounding me at all times. God is bringing to my attention all the kiddos we will be encountering in these upcoming 11 months and my heart already hurts for them. Tonight, some of them have no one to snuggle with, to love on. That kills me. Snuggling babies is my specialty. I know one day Jesus will allow me to adopt, but right now i have to trust Him to keep them safe. I pray that the kids that are lonely and afraid tonight sleep peacefully, for the first time in awhile. I pray that they know how loved they are, by me, and by the most high king that rules over this world. I pray they rest from their responsiblities and their worries for one night, this night. I pray they find someone that cares enough to snuggle them to sleep. I love you babies, i'm coming for you, Jesus has you.
My team-
I dont know who anyone on my team is yet, and i wont know for another 2 months.
I pray that God prepares our hearts for each other, that our hearts mold together into a family. A family that loves, never judges and has self control. I pray that we desire God before each other, i pray that we respect everyone on the team and we grow to know each other in ways only God could have planned. I love whoever you people are already.
My family-
I love you so much. Leaving you will break my heart, but i know its never goodbye.
I love you daddy. I really really do.
I pray that you all grow so much deeper in Christ, i pray that my brother knows Jesus in a real way by the time i get back. I pray that this time away from each other will give them room to grow in the ways they need to. I love you.
My church-
I pray that you keep seeking Christ's will before everything else.
I'm so proud to call myself a member.
You are also family, and i love you.
My friends-
i cannot anymore than i already have at this point.
it hurts too much.
i love you more than my own self.
Myself-
I pray that my eyes are stuck to Jesus, that my heart is sired to him, that everything else fades away. I pray that i do not become distracted with anyone or anything other than him. I pray that i grow so much deeper and you prepare me for what i will experience. I pray that you let me feel what you feel, even if its too much to handle. I want to suffer for you, Jesus. I want to love, i want to love the way you do.
