I’ve had some incredible experiences over the past 10
months. God has revealed Himself to me in ways that I never imagined possible
this side of Heaven. I have felt His presence, heard His voice, and seen His
power in real, tangible, mind blowing ways. I have tasted what true intimacy with the Trinity is like. But. Every
time I go deep with God, every time He reveals a deeper part of Himself, when
He tries to take me even deeper, more intimate places with Him, I get scared
and come up for air. I go back to the surface and end up learning the same
lessons over and over again. Chelsea Brunts gave me a word this week that made
me realize all of this. She told me, “God will keep teaching you these lessons,
but who wants the same lessons over and over again when you can experience Him
in new ways. Dude, who likes the surface? It’s things we’ve all seen before,
visions we are used to, like the sunlight and the sky and the horizon. Why stay
there when you can discover the unknown? The deepest part of the ocean is the
scariest….but it also holds the most beautiful treasures/ things we have never
seen.”
months. God has revealed Himself to me in ways that I never imagined possible
this side of Heaven. I have felt His presence, heard His voice, and seen His
power in real, tangible, mind blowing ways. I have tasted what true intimacy with the Trinity is like. But. Every
time I go deep with God, every time He reveals a deeper part of Himself, when
He tries to take me even deeper, more intimate places with Him, I get scared
and come up for air. I go back to the surface and end up learning the same
lessons over and over again. Chelsea Brunts gave me a word this week that made
me realize all of this. She told me, “God will keep teaching you these lessons,
but who wants the same lessons over and over again when you can experience Him
in new ways. Dude, who likes the surface? It’s things we’ve all seen before,
visions we are used to, like the sunlight and the sky and the horizon. Why stay
there when you can discover the unknown? The deepest part of the ocean is the
scariest….but it also holds the most beautiful treasures/ things we have never
seen.”
God is an endless ocean. He is full of wonder, beauty, and
love. The thought of letting go and just allowing myself to drown in His
affection and character is scary. But what possibilities it holds. I have just one month before I am back on US
soil, what am I going to do after this race? I have no idea, but I do know that
the possibilities are as endless as the ocean of who God is and I am never going
back to the surface. The girl who left Oklahoma in January is gone, lost in the
waves of His mercy, love, and grace. I’ve taken my last gulp of the stale air
of what was and I’m drinking in the refreshing water of His plans for me. Take
me deeper Jesus, I’m all yours!
