MALAYSIA | Kuala Lumpar
Radical Devotion… what does that mean? In the since of a relationship, with people here on this earth, it could translate into a restraining order if we are really talking “radical”. But, no obviously I am not talking about that. I am speaking of being radically devoted to the God that created the universe. Wow, doesn’t that sound great. Devoted in heart, soul and mind to the one that gave it all for you.
I love the idea of this. Pretty regularly my prayers consist of something like this, even the songs I sing during worship shout for this idea. But, what is the risk involved in this? Losing everything you own? Your friends? Your family? Yourself? I have been asking myself (and God) if this is what I want. I know I ask for it in my prayers and sing to it in my worship…but am I giving it all over to God with a closed fist held tightly around the familiar…or am I throwing it all at Him and saying take it all because what you have is so much greater.
The past three months I have been asking God to take all of me. I want to be fully devoted. But in the last couple of days questions have risen about whether or not I am acting it out. I may believe that God should have all of me, but am I living in a way that reflects that? Would I really be willing to give up my dreams, aspirations, and even family for the sake of God and His kingdom?
So I sit here (at a Starbucks in Malaysia J), not preaching or telling anyone that I have it all figured out, but dazed and confused, a little blurry on the next step if there is one.
