Sorry for the long berth in updates. The arrival of new CGA apprentices, camping in the woods for four days, and listening to the man upstairs has done a number on my heart, mind, and soul. While I’m still muddling through a lot of things, here are some thoughts brewin’ in my head.
Enjoy:
- “To love is to be vulnerable.”– C.S. Lewis.
This past weekend I’ve come to the realization that I’ve been resorting back to old coping mechanisms for protection. I’ve found myself shutting down and forcing humor to get through my day. When one of my friends pointed it out, the last time I remember being totally open was on the Race. I got back to America, and with people not being as interested in my travels as I thought they would be, I went back into insecurity mode.
With prayer and hope, I’m working through the struggle of protecting myself to protect old wounds and allowing God to heal them without sounding like a victim.
- “Wearing underwear is as personal as I hope to ever get.”—Hemmingway
Lately I’ve been craving deeper personal relationships. (See point #1) I realize that doesn’t happen overnight and with the influx of new people coming to AIM I have to be patient. But really, I’ve been getting annoyed with the amount of barriers technology puts up. It’s killing my relationships.
Sidenote: Texting is not the same as a conversation, no matter how many emoticons you put in it.
Sorry… it’s just not… try again.
Community is useless if all we ever do is sit in the same room and stare into our iPhones.
- “Beer is proof God loves us and wants us to be happy.”—Franklin
I’ve been toying with going to a green farming community and learning how to brew beer for business purposes. Between writing and beer, maybe I could make a steady income to do what I want to do in missions.
Some may call this sacrilegious…
I think it may be a good idea…
Details to follow soon.
- “There is a God shaped vacuum in the heart of every man which cannot be filled by any created thing, but only by God, made known by Jesus Christ.” –Blaise Pascal
In the vein of feeling a bit more solitary, pray that I continue to press into God, during this time of learning and soul searching.
May the words of the past be stepping stones, not resting points, to propel your life forward towards God, the one who loves you more than anyone.
