Before I started the Race, so many people told me the same thing: “You’re going to be such a different person when you get home”. I would usually smile, and then say something about support. But now, coming to the end of month nine, I’m only beginning to see what God has done/and will continue to do to me.
While I’m still in what World Racers call “in processing” (which is a trick statement, because we’re always in processing), I would love to share with you some of the nuggets of wisdom God has revealed to me thus far on this journey:
It’s okay to be yourself around kids. It’s okay to not know what you’re doing. It’s okay for your plans to get torched. God never asked you to be perfect. He just asks you to report for duty, listen the best you can, and do what you think you're called to do. He'll do the rest.
2. Sisters are a wonderful gift from God.
When I started this race, in my heart, I had lots of pain towards women. But being loved by a wonderfully wild Lord, God put me on a squad with wonderful sisters. I have had my pain loved out of me. It in turn has given me a heart for women who have been human trafficked and abused. This isn't a post-feminist rant. It is a thank you. Thank you ladies for loving the heart of a very angry man, and patiently showing me what it means to be loved by sisters in Christ. Your love has changed me and has brought peace that will echo in the lives of others you'll never know.
3. Being a man is about being steadfast with what God has shown you.
In Guatemala I was fickle, at best, as a man. I often ran from responsiblity, blamed others for my errors, and remained bitter for years for wrongs. However, I have learned that Manhood is about being in His image, standing up for what you believe in, showing strength in gentleness, meeting people where they are, and doing what you know is right. You are responsible for what you have to do. Trust God with the rest.
4. I am not entitled to anything.
I thank God for my supporters everytime I eat Ramen Noodles. I try my best to do any job set in front of me because I know there is nothing beyond my dignity. I thank God and my supporters when I get to sleep in a tent. I was not made… I was GIVEN life… and continue to be given life daily.
Thank you God for speaking. Thank you God for letting me listen.
