Thailand has come and gone and time flew out of our hands
once again. After spending the month 
volunteering out time at SHE ministry,
going in and out of many bars each night, building friendships with the ladies,
we had to say our goodbyes. You never realize how attached you get to a place
until it is time to leave.
As Monica (teammate) and I walked to Cartoon Bar for our
last time to say goodbye to this one specific lady 
we invested time with; We
quickly realized God did not just use us to impact her, but used her to change
us. This month we really got to see the
hearts of the ladies working behind the bars, listening to stories that break
your heart and seeing a desire for truth, scream from inside their soul.
The last few nights at the bar was hard, as we saw a more
open and eagerness heart to spend time with us. As we told her it
was our last night, a sadness came over all of us, but as we gave her a letter
with a reminder of Jesus loves and the hope we all can have in him, I knew God
was taking care of her. We also now all have matching bracelets to remind each
other of our friendship and the time we shared together. 
I said to her, “what will you do without us coming to the
bar each night?”
And with no delay she replied saying “I will just look at my bracelet”
As my heart screamed for more time, I held back the tears
knowing God is the God of her life and I surrendered, trusting God is pursuing
her each day. My prayer now is that she has open eyes, ears and heart to lean
toward God and his plan for her life. To give up the ways of life she thinks
brings joy yet they other give condtional joy and come to the father who gives
everlasting hope, grace, love and joy.
As we drove away from the bars that night, I said “Goodbye
Thailand I will miss you”. As our contacts remind us it is never a goodbye but
it is a sending off. Who knows what will happen, Gods plan are divine and they bring us
to place we never thought.
Ps: On another note May 28 was my dad’s birthday, so we all
went out to dinner as the last night in Thailand but also a celebration to a
man’s life, I was transformed by – I will always love you and celebrate the man
you were, and transformed me to be. My team also surprised me with a cake of
celebration at the end of that night (which we all enjoyed- as you can see). It
was an awesome day to celebrate- Dad you are forever missed !
