I was sitting in court all this past week, sitting there because
two years ago in a car accident my dad passed away and the driver did not plead
guilty. Four days of court, 8 hour days, long and very emotional. The room was
silent as the, lawyer, crown counsel, judge, witnesses and victim’s family
spoke one at a time. It was a cold room, a room of tear, headaches, anger and
understanding. I understood that week what went on the day my father passed
away, I kept it from my head for so long. The first day my sister and I faced the accused and told him our name
and who we were. As I walked from him my eyes filled with tears, thinking, “You
can at least say sorry, do you not know what you have done?” The rest of the
week went by with a feeling of shame and guilt from the accused- he knew what
he did; at the end he was found guilty punished for reckless driving. Before
his sentence my sister and I, read our victim statements to the judge, praying
the accused would hear. I listened to my sisters with tear streaming down my
face and then read my statement shacking and tears rolling down, but with a knowing
I was standing there for my dad. The judge ended the four long days with
looking at us, smiling, knowing our pain, and knew where our faith stood. I left
filled with a sense of Joy from the judge because he knew we were there for our
father, the man we loved, he knew we loved God and God was a huge part of
getting us through the past two years.
I tell you all this because this has been my life for the past
week, with all the other things I needed to fit in. I have been reflecting over
the past week and it will be a struggle for a while, working through different
emotions and feelings towards this day. I lost a very special person, who I
dreamt of walking down the aisle of my wedding with. But as I reflected I think
about where I have been over the past year and about what God has done in my
life and am amazed. I know over that
week I was covered with prayer, from children to adults and I could feel it
each day. Over the past two years I have had huge support. A friend of mine came to support me for a
couple days, thanking him, he said, “I would not have had it any other way”. I
praise God for my family and friends, the support and prayers of each person. The
relationships I have been blessed with having. My family as God has helped us
to communicate and love each other, appreciating one another.
My prayer to all;
May the Lord bless you and keep you,
May the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you,
May the Lord turn his face toward you and give you Shalom – Numbers 6:24-26
(Shalom: The state of
complete health, harmony, and wholeness between God and people, people and each
other, and people and creation.)
