Since getting accepted to go on the World Race i have face many challenges and in the beginning I was high in faith, believing everything was going to be great, but i think it was the excitement. I would not see the rawness of this entire adventure. I wrote down all my ideas and started to call people although they would ask me when are you leaving and i would say July 2015 they will start loosing interest and can i be honest? i started to loose interest myself.
I got lost in the midst of my mix emotions and all my personal problems started to overwhelm me.
I’m currently in my fourth year of Biblical institute and i stop going, why? i didn’t have an excuse “Just Because” was my way out of anyone questioning me.
I work in a Kitchen Gadget Warehouse and we are currently in overtime season, and who doesn’t like some extra cash in their pocket? well i been not working to the best of my abilities and i been arriving late.
I was very active in the worship team, youth group, teaching the kids, and lately i been slacking in everything more like UNMOTIVATED.
Earlier this week i had a confrontation with my best guy friend and he was telling me that something was wrong and i kept avoiding telling him how i felt and kept saying i am fine and he’s like no your not yourself and my attitude was negative and i decide to give him some attitude and brush him off, i didn’t want to hear no one telling me i was pushing GOD into a second place.
BUT TODAY November 30 2014, my life has been INTERRUPTED by God.
This past friday i went to worship practice and to be honest i wanted to stay home and cuddle in my bed, but i force myself because i felt down, sad, & depress. Once i got there me and one other person were the only worshippers there (there i felt like God was starting to tell me something, but i couldn’t quite figure it out.)
Today i woke up feeling a little bit more better but i knew since i open my eyes that today was going to be a good day!
During the worship God showed up and manifested himself in a POWERFUL way, i couldn’t contain myself from tearing and feeling the Holy Spirit stirring up my HEART! Once the Pastors Wife got on the Mic to preach and started just with the title i was zone out of everything in my surroundings and fully focus on what God wanted to speak to me. throughout the preaching i felt so convicted and could relate to it so much, (She Preached on Jonah) on the struggles he went thru on his own the internal battle of
Pride (what are the people going to say about me? they might think i am crazy?)
Power (Would his message have any impact on the people, are they going to listen to him.)
Fear (Getting rejected by the crowd in Nineveh, Being hated by the people)
Selfishness (He was totally fine where he was, comfortable and no problem)
Sometimes we tell God to take everything, we surrender all but when He starts working in our life’s we try to stop him (Lord take everything but not this or not that)
Running from God in Disobedience.
-Sleep- Lack of Focus, avoidance behavior, addictions.
-Lack of courage- We give up easily and are hopeless.
Walking in Obediences
-God ALWAYS provides a way.
-God meets us even in our self-imposed trouble.
God’s Miracles in our life’s are for a greater PURPOSE than our PERSONAL COMFORT. We might not feel right with God’s Calling in our lives but Just like Pastor Mark Says “God is pushing us where there’s nothing in front of you, But God wants you to trust him and believe & He will create something there for you.”
i related so much because i tell God i want to walk in your will but i don’t want to give up the desires of my flesh, but i felt like today God came into my life and Interrupted my plans & Place his plans before my eyes. I told the ENEMY it STOPS TODAY!! God i will walk in obedience & according to your plans all my desires and i KNOW YOU WILL TAKE CARE OF ME.
I am beyond nervous about this trip but i put my full trust in him and even tho it might not be easy i know it will be possible.
Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not to your own understanding.
I challange you to LET GOD INTERRUPT YOUR LIFE!
