This past Sunday Pastor J.J. preached on faith journey’s. That is what I know in my heart I am currently on. I am on a journey of complete and total faith in trust that God will continue to reveal himself and his will for my life to me. A journey in which I have to trust that he will be my ultimate supplier of all my needs. That he will make a way and provide the finances I need for this trip. A journey in which satan keeps trying to detour and prevent me from continuing on. This past sunday when Pastor J.J. preached was what God used as a renewal and confirmation for me, that I am doing what I am suppose to be doing. That I am on the path that i belong on.
For those of you who don’t know I applied for the world race in March 2010. I applied after a very difficult event occured (please just ask if you would like to know I am willing to share more about it). That event could have and should have put me on a completely different path of life, but God had other plans and I asked him to reveal himself in that situation and to show me what was next for me. Then a few weeks later I was approved for the world race (oct. 2010 squad.) So after being accepted I really started praying and seeking God. I also started asking others to pray for me. Time after time of talking with fellow christians God confirmed to me this was the next step for me in life. At this point I was feeling so alive again, more than I had felt in I dont know how long. All my pain, stress, doubtfulness, everything just gone. For the first time in a long time I had peace a peace that some people even questioned thinking I was still in shock from the situation back in Febraury. Yet I was not in a state of shock God had truely given me the peace and direction i had asked for. So everything truely seemed to be going well. A couple days into June as i was prepareing to buy my plane ticket for training camp which was suppose to be in July, I ended up hitting my elbow one night and damageing some nerves in my arm and hand. I was devestated. I spent nights in tears asking God why this was happening. I was so sure, I new with out a doubt that this was what I was suppose to be doing so why was this happening? For about 3 weeks I progressively loss movement and control of my right hand. I continued to pray and seek God. After about 3 weeks the progression stopped so I was releaved when the doctors told me that they didnt think I would need surgery as they previously thought. I thanked God. Although I didnt need surgery I still could not really move 3 of my fingers and had swelling throughout my whole arm. so I continued to pray. July came and I was still haveing problems with my ring finger and piny and swelling in my arm. So I then had to call AIM/worldrace and talk to them about what needed to happen. I explained how I truely had peace about going on the world race but would not be able to go to training camp. So I then spent the week praying about what God wanted me to do. I then called them back and I was moved to the JAnuary 2011 squad. I prayed another week about which route God wanted me to be on. So now for an update. I can now move all my fingers most of the swelling is gone. I still have problems with the nerves and swelling when my arm and hand are over used. I am currently in physical therapy twice a week.
I ask that you would continue to pray for me as I continue on this journey of faith. Pray that my shoulder, arm, hand and nerves would be completely healed and I would be pain free. Please also pray that God will provide the finances for me to go on the world race. These last several months have truely been a journey of faith, one that I would not trade for anything. I have learned so much already and cant wait to see how much more God does in my life. We truely serve and awesome GOD who is capable of any and all things.
