After 3 1/2 years my car was packed for the last time, I was moving back home. On my drive I listened to a Christmas cd. The song Breath of Heaven played and I repeated the song multiple times. I was overwhelmed by this prayer offered by Mary and felt a strong connection to her prayer.
"Holy Father, You have come
And chosen me now to carry Your Son
I am waiting in a silent prayer
I am frightened by the load I bear
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now, be with me now
Do you wonder as you watch my face
If a wiser one should have had my place?
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of Your plan
Help me be strong, help me be, help me"
Upon returning to school after Thanksgiving I became super overwhelmed with mass thoughts of graduating, saying goodbye to friends, moving, anticipating the holidays with family and leaving behind everything I've known for the next 11 months. I had become frightened by the load I was bearing.
One morning a couple weeks back I was completely overtaken by the presence of the Lord and my response was chaotic. I wanted to sing, I wanted to read, I wanted to pray, I wanted to dance, I wanted to lift my hands, I wanted to be silent-all at once! In these moments the Lord reminded me that, what is coming is HIS VISION and it is good and it is set and I can trust it!!! That was all I needed. I needed to remember that God is with me now.
We have been chosen to Carry God's Son to the world. And it is an honor and a joy. We may not be "qualified", but we am poured over with holiness and made righteous and given all that we need.
This morning I was reading 1 Corinthians 3:21-23 where it says "So let no one boast about human leaders. For all things are yours…-all belong to you, and you belong to Christ, and Christ belongs to God."
My prayer is that we will be bold and we will be willng to offer all that we are for the Lord's plan!!. In that plan there is no room for worry, there is not room for fear. We are called to enter into the Lord's joy. And I pray especially this holiday season, we are doing just that, we are entering into the joy of the LORD, BECAUSE HE HAS COME!
Let us rejoice!!
