My experience at training camp is nothing what I was
expecting. I got on a flight headed for Atlanta arriving to meet 150 other
passionate members of God’s family that have experienced the exact same whisper
that I heard about a month ago. I got on a bus for about an hour to arrive at
training camp. Since then my life has completely been restored and transformed.
I have found restoration in God in areas that I never thought I would be freed
from. I have experienced the love of Jesus in a way I have never felt before.
It is hard to describe training camp in few words but here it goes: Jesus
filled, passionate, loving, forgiving, Spirit filled, incredible, focused on a
goal, something different, hot, humid, heavy, light, filling, freedom,
community, difficult, dancing, singing, worship, screaming, sweating, dirty,
cleansed, humble, restored, awakening, alive, not a place of fear or rejection,
a place of love, grace, mercy. Those are just a few words to explain a little
bit about training camp so far. It is hard to put into words exactly what has
been going on these past 9 days. All I can say is, God is moving in the hearts
of everyone here and we are a generation that is eager to serve Him, be loved
my Him, have our heart break when His heart breaks, have Him speak His word
through us, and become more and more like Him. I am excited about the work that
God is already doing in each and every life that is at this camp. I am eager to
see how God is going to use each of us for his perfect plan this next year. He
has already started to shake our worlds as we have known them for so long and
it is amazing. Our wall, our boundaries and our social differences are already
starting to disappear.
The situation that has had the most impact on me so far is a
team building opportunity that the women of our squad did all together. A little background: I am a member of
the September 2010 World Race team. Do to the number of people who singed up
for the race they split the September team into two squads. So I am on the
September 2010 World Race “Q” Squad. We have 30 women and 10 men on our squad.
As the squad building activity of the day we were given a scenario: we have all
been in a plane crash and have to make it to the top of the hill all together
to safety. Here is the catch every person had an ailment. They either were
blind, diseased, paralyzed, had one arm or one leg, and a few came away with no
ailment. I was one of the few that was spared with no injury or ailment. My
first job was to carry a girl on my back through the obstacle course to the top
of the hill all alone. As I but a girl on my back and lead a blind girl through
this course I started to realized a lot about how this related to my life. So
many times I would walk into situations blindly. Not seeing the situation for
what it really was whether it be good or bad. For the girl on my back she
represented the burdens in my life that I have been caring all alone for way
too long.
When
I finally reached the top of the hill and dropped this burden I felt as though
God was telling me, “No I have lightened your load so you will never have to
carry that burden ever again.”
I
have learned so much about myself through this process. I have realized hurts
in my life that I never dealt with finely be healed through Jesus. I have been
able to forgive myself for things I have done. I have found freedom in Jesus
and have felt the everlasting love from Him that I know will never leave me. He
is my passion. He is my healer. He has reminded me that He never gave up on me
and never forgot about me.
