It was the night of New Years Eve and Erin and I were spending the evening with Kyle and Hailey Crimi. We ate dinner, played board games and did the count down all together; it was a great night. At the end of the evening I felt as though I should ask what everyone’s New Years resolution was. We went around the table and the last person to go was Erin. She looked at me and said, “I would like a baby”. Kyle and Hailey chuckled as I smiled back and said, “Honey you know that we agreed on two years and nine months”. It had only been six months at that point.
Flash forward a month and a half; Erin wakes up and says that she is not feeling good. It had been over a month since her last menstrual cycle and in my mind I began to say oh darn in nice Christian language, I got her pregnant. Erin and I decided that I should go get some pregnancy tests to just confirm that she was not pregnant.
I left the house with a smile on my face because thoughts about occurrences the prior month began to run through my mind. Peace flooded my being as I drove down the road. We had a scare four months earlier but something was different, I felt the peace of God on this. I thought to myself, I can fight this or I can just rest in it.
As I came up to Walgreen’s, the big sign as you drive into the parking lot said, Huggies $14.99. I said, Lord you have got to be kidding me, I am not ready for this, we are not ready for this but yet again peace flooded my being.
I came to the pregnancy tests and got the most accurate one that I could find. I got back into the car and I thought about a gift that I had just received from my good friend Chris Telfer; a gift card to Boarders that said Happy Birthday Dad! I thought about the numerous amount of fathers that would come up to the kiosk in the mall and ask me if I was a father yet. They said that I would be a great dad. I thought about the babies that were all over and that I was noticing them so much more. Was this really happening to me? Was a dream of mine coming true way before I had even imagined it?
The last time I drove back from Walgreen’s, fear overcame me and my life flashed before my eyes. This time I had the peace of God over me and there was something alright about the thought of becoming a dad.
I ran up stairs as quick as I could and I ripped the package open. I had Erin do her business and then she wanted to lay on the bed because the thought of being parents at this point in our lives was a little overwhelming.
More to come later!
