The night before I left for training camp was one of the hardest. So many thoughts were swarming in my head and I was so overwhelmed by the fact that all of this was coming so fast. Trying my hardest to keep everything together but it was not working and soon I was sitting on a porch just letting it all go. I don’t even know why it was affecting me so much because it wasn’t even launch yet. But I think the fact that training camp is just the beginning of what’s to come hit really hard. I was second guessing and really unsure of what was to come. I was so afraid of the unknown and the fear was overpowering. I was so worried of the future and whether or not I was prepared for it. I had been preparing for training camp for so long but somehow all of that had slipped away and all that was left was this feeling of chaos.
Training camp was one of the hardest but most rewarding 10 days. I don’t think there is any way to really describe training camp or try and tell about what happened. It was a crazy 10 days of learning and relying on God and trusting and depending on these strangers that you will be living life with for the next year.
So much happened in those ten days that it feels all jumbled together. There was this closeness and comfort I felt from the Lord and how he works in our discomfort. I was so uncomfortable in this new place, new people, new experiences, and so many things I have never done before. I never felt that much discomfort before and I had no idea what to do. I had no one to go to. But my comfort is not in things, or people, or circumstances of where I am at that time. But my comfort is found in Christ. We are not meant to be comfortable. He did not call us to a live a life of comfort and ease. No matter how much I am out of my comfort zone, God is the only comfort I need and the only thing that will sustain me. He is made strong in our weakness. I am nothing without Him. Life is changing so rapidly yet he remains that same.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
