So what’s Next?
I have forever dreaded that question, and it seems like the closer graduation gets, the more that question has come up. What then? I honestly had no idea. I knew that God had a plan and something in store, but what that was I had no idea. I knew that I had started on the right path with school and what I was studying felt right but what would I do after school?
Where would I go after I graduate?
I had pushed this question to the side, not wanting to answer because I did not have an answer. This is not how it was suppose to be. I had this idea that everything would fall into place and I would just figure it out later. But the closer I became to being done with school I still had no idea and it became frustrating. The uncertainty was sometimes too much to bare, but I knew deep in my heart that the Lord had a plan and I clung to that.
I knew He would not just leave me alone here scrambling, but instead would show me when the time was right. He was teaching me along the way to lean on Him, to let go and trust that he is in control and I could let go. I did not to have to know every step but let Him lead so I can follow.
So about a month ago, after months of pushing it aside, I applied and got accepted for the World Race, not knowing exactly where it would lead or what would happen. I felt the Lord calling me and I was done pushing it away.
Now if you would’ve told me a year ago that I would be going on the World Race I would have thought you were crazy. I probably would have come up with a million different excuses as to why I could not do it. The World Race? How could I travel to 11 countries and be able to share the gospel? That fear of the unknown and not feeling capable was so strong.
But with much prayer, trust in the Lord, and support those close to me that fear has faded. Now that is not to say that this is going to be easy, just the opposite. This is probably going to be one of the most challenging and difficult things I have ever done. I would be lying if I said I was not nervous or a little scared. I am kinda freaking out. But it in a good way if thats possible. I know that the Lord has placed it on my heart to do this, to go to these specific countries, to serve and share the Gospel.Yes, there are many unknowns, do I know what’s going to happen all along the way? No. But I know that the Lord is in control and He is faithful and that is enough.
