Doxology

I didn’t think when I signed on for the World Race that I would find myself job searching in the middle of fund raising. I thought I was going to be able to hold onto the job I had until I was ready to put in my 2 week notice, then dance off into the sunset on the World Race. I wonder how hard God was laughing at me while I looked through my calendar to figure out when I could put in my 2 week notice.

 

I got laid off last week. 

 

I suppose that should mean I’m upset about losing my job, or frustrated with God over messing with my plans, but I’m not. God called me to that job for a time, but when He told me it was time to get ready to go on the World Race, He was also saying it was time to leave the job. I didn’t do it. I stayed at my job. I got increasingly worried about how long I would be able to hold onto it. It got harder and harder to do my job. Then my responsibilities started disappearing. Finally, a week ago Friday, the last reason for keeping me around was yanked out from under my feet and I knew… I knew then it was just a question of when I would get called away from my desk, told I was being let go, and tossed back into the turbulent waters of unemployment and job searching. When exactly that happened Tuesday afternoon, I spent a few moments in shock, but with the shock came the release of this huge burden. I’d asked God to slam the door shut if He wanted me to leave this job, and the answer was a resounding slam.

 

I am applying for another job. My finances are still in a tangle after college, and leaving them tangled for someone else to try to wade through while I spend 11 months running around the world isn’t fair. I’m also wrestling with the thought of filing for unemployment because I was laid off. Financially, that would make sense, but some of the terms make me hesitate about it. I’m taking this time off to pray and consider what God would have me do. 

 

Really, I am thankful to be in the position I am in right now. I have the time I didn’t give myself before to immerse myself in the Word and prayer and really take in all of the things God wants me to know and understand before I leave in January. I have the energy to put into raising funds for World Race. I have the ability to apply myself to preparing physically for this. And I have the chance to relearn concepts of fiscal responsibility I forgot and apply them to my current state of financial affairs. Thank you, God. This really is a blessing.

 

As a final closing thought, God seems to have put the Doxology in my head as something that needs to be shared. I do praise God for the circumstances I am in right now, and all He has blessed me with, so I suppose it would be appropriate to share. 🙂