I was picturing the throne room scene from Revelation and God showed me the elders casting their crowns and robotically worshipping God at the same time saying, "Holy, Holy, Holy…" Then He showed me a "messier" vision of the elders all crying out to God but each one is crying out in their own way from their hearts (some falling on the floor, some rolling around, some hiding their faces…).
And it dawned on me, how can I do the same thing in worship over and over and expect it to not become routine and mundane. God desires worship from the heart, not something that looks like worship or that goes through the motions to just check worship off of my list for the day or week.
It's not complicated, charismatic, overly-spiritual or crazy…IT'S LOVE
I know I don't want to hear my dad, mom or best friends say "I love you Cassie" unless they mean it with their heart. And you can tell whether someone genuinely loves you or not…are they willing to tell you the hard things, to go to the ugly places with you, reach out when you are pushing away, forgive you when you've hurt them yet again…?
I believe it's the same way with God. He doesn't want to hear me say I love you if it is not from my heart. If I say I love you in worship but yet fail to spend time communicating with Him or being with Him, DO I REALLY LOVE HIM? Or if I say I trust you Jesus but try to take matters into my own hands or manipulate my circumstances just to "play it safe", DO I REALLY TRUST HIM?
"God help me worship you and you alone from my heart. Help me not just sing words that have no meaning or to just sing to sing. Help me worship you in Spirit and in Truth. Forgive me for saying one thing and doing another. Fill me up, I give you my heart."
"Search me O, God and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting!"–Psalm 139:23-24
