In less than four weeks I will be leaving the country to start a journey that is going to drastically change my life. It’s hard to explain everything that I’m experiencing right now, but I feel led to blog a little about my fears I have going into this journey, and also about freedom that I have because of Jesus Christ. It’s easy to focus on the negative and let fear have a grip on my heart, so I want to point out that I’m not focusing on my fears but I do want people to know that in reality there are fears that I have to give to my Father daily through this process.
From Fear—to be honest I am very afraid. Afraid of the unknown, afraid of change, afraid of insects/bugs/snakes (really anything creepy crawly), afraid to love, afraid to take a leap of faith… but I know that my God did not give me a spirit of fear.
To Freedom—I used to think I was free, I didn’t know how much bondage I was in because I was blinded by my sin and past hurt. When I think back to the areas of my life that I was bound in, I can’t help but long to help others realize the freedom that there is in a relationship with Jesus Christ. I was once bound by addictions, but in Christ I know that He is able to fill the holes in my heart; I was once bound by bitterness/unforgiveness, but in Christ I see the forgiveness He gracefully extends to me and I am set free to forgive others; I was once bound by self-hatred, but Christ shows me His steadfast, persistent love that knows no bounds and I am set free to love with His love that He places in me. It is for freedom that Christ has set me free.
God give me grace to face my fears head on (DO IT AFRAID!) and willing hearts to pour the love, grace and freedom that I have found in you into!
