Ah! So here I am about to embark on a journey to 11 different countries in 11 months! I’m so excited, but also so nervous. To tell the truth I didn’t really want to go at first….
When I told my family I was thinking about this trip, they thought I was joking. After about 5 months of thinking about applying, I actually applied. I was kind of hoping I wouldn’t get accepted so I could say this isn’t God’s plan for my life! Then, to my surprise I got accepted! I didn’t jump for joy and scream or call my BFF, I hung up the phone and almost cried.
I started thinking about things I’m going to miss out on when I’m on my trip. Birthdays, weddings, holidays, engagements, graduations, family reunions, the list goes on and on! I kept thinking how I’m not qualified to go to these countries and preach to these people in great need! How do I have any idea what they have been through! I know that Satan was putting these thoughts in my head trying to stop me from going.
I told my parents and they just kind of looked at me like I was crazy! I remember telling my mom if she doesn’t want me to go, then I wont! (I kinda said that so she would say, “No don’t go”.. but she didn’t). My dad kept telling me how worried he is and how scared he is for me!
Then when I told my extended family, my grandma cried. I’m pretty emotional and when I see anyone crying, especially family, I cry too. So I’m sitting at the table telling them that I’m going to leave them for 11 months on an life changing trip! I know that they are happy for me but are are so worried about me going to so many different countries.
I’m a people pleaser and I want to make everyone happy so when my family wasn’t jumping up and down for joy I again started doubting God’s plan for my life!
My whole family is so supportive of this journey although they are very worried about me! Even though they think I’m a little crazy they still love me and they will support me through this insane journey!
When I told my church family, their faces immediately light up when I started explaining my future plans! They are so supportive and loving. Without them I would probably wimp out and not go on this adventure! They are all truly amazing people who love God and want to see His kingdom grow!
It’s going to suck missing out on so many things here at home! But if I can show one person the love and hope of our amazing God then it is all worth it!! The people of these countries we’re going to need hope. Without God’s amazing hope we have NOTHING. This is what GOD wants me to do. He wants me out of my comfort zone so I can grow in my faith and show others His love and hope!
Yes I’m a little freaked out to go on this trip but I feel so blessed that this is Gods plan for my life! I’m so excited to go to Africa and love on those sweet little orphans. I can’t wait to minister to people who are stuck In human trafficking and show them the hope of our Lord and Savior. To show God’s love to children in hospitals! To give men, women and children in prison hope in their future! God is so good!! Life is so much better when we have hope in God!!
Please keep praying for my team and I as we continue to prepare for this amazing journey! Pray that God fills us with the knowledge that we need to minister to theses people in need!
