We’ve all done it or faced it before. We’re in a corner, figuratively or literally, and feel alone, lost, abandoned, hurt…
Enter the Devil. He whispers thoughts about how no one likes us or we’re not wanted or worth it. These feelings of wanting to never be seen increase with every second we take Satan’s bait. We think we’re the only one feeling this way or that no one could possibly understand or that we cannot explain.
This is something I believe we have all struggled with before. You feel trapped. This happens more frequently than I’d like to admit. Most recently, I was fighting this again with everything I was thinking and feeling from working with refugees. I value justice very high, but am also high empathy. This combo can be fatal if I do not let others in to what’s going on in my head and heart.
But that means being vulnerable and rejecting the lie that I am alone and that no one can understand all that I am thinking and feeling. I know this mind game the devil plays because I’ve been played before.
This time, after what seemed like a long two or three days, I broke my silence. I dared to step out of my comfort zone and asked to talk with Erika (our awesome Squad Leader) before I knew what I wanted to talk about.
See, I like to have everything put together and sorted out before I speak. But that’s where the devil can get me. I isolate myself until I have things figured out, but this time, I couldn’t figure things out. I was miserable inside and couldn’t figure out why.
Just taking the step to break my silence cleared some cloudiness in my mind. Satan has no hold on me that I don’t allow.
After talking with Erika, I didn’t feel like I had everything ”sorted out,” but I felt way lighter in my spirit. I defied darkness.
I want you, the reader, to realize the first step out of isolation and all the lies that come with it is to break your silence. Talk to someone you trust. Even if you don’t know what you need to talk about. Be the victorious that Christ made you to be.
