“I’m no longer a slave to fear
I am a child of God”
Tears flowed as I lifted up my hands to the heavens, wanting nothing more than to believe I was a child of God and that He heard me, loved me, and wanted me.
I wanted to feel His embrace.
My heart ached. Afraid and alone, I wanted so badly to believe those words…
The lyrics to this song split my very soul open.
One of the many things God used training camp for was to show me He loved me in a very real way…more than I could ever fathom.
I’m not saying I’m never afraid or never have doubts. I am human. I will falter, but I am grateful for a Savior who is perfect and holy…and loves me eternally, despite my fears and doubts.
I am grateful for a Heavenly Father who will never tire of reminding me I am His beloved daughter.
“From my mother’s womb
You have chosen me
Love has called my name
I’ve been born again, into Your family
Your blood flows through my veins”
How beautiful to know He has chosen me, despite my humanity, to be His child and to share His wondrous love with others.
“…All my fears were drowned in perfect love
You rescued me, so I could stand and sing
I am a child of God”
I want nothing more than my fears to be drowned, and proclaim His love to the nations.
I never viewed or imagined myself as a “missionary,” and was a little reluctant when He first called me…but now I want, more than anything- my heart’s one desire- is to be used by God for His glory; to revel in the peace of being His daughter.
Wholly and completely loved from eternity to eternity.
I sometimes still cry when I hear this song…but now it’s because I know He loves me. I feel His loving embrace as He whispers “I love you.”
O, how He loves me.
He has answered me.
