Apologies, I am a little dramatic up front because I use my journal to mentally process…but I think this tells you where my mind was last week.
“This place is killing me, which I guess is a good thing because it is supposedly creating a more mold-able me for missions. But I am literally exhausted, hungry,cranky, frustrated, and out-of-control. I think I really need an attitude check, but honestly, it’s a just easier to be grumpy.
Sometimes we get comfortable in our misery. Here at camp (without giving too much away to future racers), they keep surprising us with scenarios that change our sleeping space/location, our access to our packed goods, and what facilities are at our disposal. I know that this will happen on the Race too, but I guess with my level of exhaustion, I am afraid of what the 11 months will do to me.
BUT, let’s be honest. I knew what I was signing up for. And as I sacrifice my comfort and my control over my surroundings, I will truly see God working in my life in ways I never opened myself up to before. So…as easy as it is to stay in a position of being grouchy, I will not. I will make the effort to live this week with an attitude of gratitude and not miss what He wants to so here and on the Race.”
God is good, and I loved meeting so many of His beautiful Children. We will spend the next year growing in Him and building each other up. So much to be thankful for!
