So this past week has been filled with awesome times and a peaceful heart. But as
Launch grew closer my nerves started to make an appearance. I was sharing this with
my mom one night and she started talking about how this whole process has been kind of like giving birth. Now don’t get me wrong, childbirth is way more monumental and lets be real, life changing (also way more painful), but the whole process in it’s self is very similar to my life the last few months.
God puts a desire in your heart so much bigger than you could possibly imagine. Maybe you don’t even know exactly what that thing is at first, but you know you were created for it from the very beginning of time.
and then………
Pure happiness when hearing the big news!! God shares this huge thing with you! You get to be a part of His plan! You are filled with excitement when you realize a new thing is about to spring forth, new life is starting. These were the same feelings I had when I found out I was excepted to go on the worldrace.
It’s followed by months of preparation. Learning and researching gear, discovering all the things you know so little about and realizing this will be forever apart of your life. Financially, seeing the challenge ahead and learning to trust God with more. Endlessly, talking about what’s to come, what will it be like? Feel like? I can’t wait until that
moment!
Your days are filled with parties celebrating this new season! Friends and family gather showering you with love and support,you will defiantly need it! Everyone wants to share their heart and wisdom for whats to come.
And as the due date approaches (much faster than you could ever think possible) you start to feel the first signs of birth, the labor pains begin. Sometimes they can come around even weeks before the real thing happens. Everything is going good and then all of a sudden you feel pain. A little twinge of discomfort, which is a reminder that this isn’t going to be easy. What’s ahead will be hard and will change the course of you life from now on. Whoa, thats a big thought. But then it eases up and you are reminded that this is the best thing that could ever happen to you.
For me that pain came and went in the form of, hard goodbyes, packing up all of my stuff, starting the process of letting go of my comforts, releasing all things from my tightly clenched hands. Some days this was a breeze, some days, well it
cut deep.
Then the day comes. The big day is finally here. Labor starts in full force. The pain intensifies, it gets harder and harder to breathe and you start to doubt if you can actually do this? Am I really ready for this? There is no way I am equipped to do this.
Lord, I really need you to help me through this. Arriving at launch has been just the beginning of labor. This thing that I’ve talked about for months is actually about
to take place. I’ve been filled with every emotion that you can possibly feel. Wincing at those last few sharp pains (hugging my family one last time) before the big push.
And here I am in the Fort Lauderdale airport getting ready to take that last step. I’ll be boarding my plane to Colombia soon. That will be the final push. Like a new parent, I am completely terrified, but somehow filled with so much excitement and joy that I can hardly bare it. Because, I know that this is from the Lord. This is His plan and I get to be apart of it. One final push and new life will begin………
(Since this post I have landed safely in Medellin Colombia. We have arrived at our ministry site and have had the last two days to rest and settle in. Tomorrow we officially begin one of many ministries we will be working on this month. I’ll try and keep you all updated on more when I can, thank you to all!)
