This squad leading thing is crazy and I oftentimes wonder what the heck I got myself into.
And here are some of my random, stream-of-consciousness thoughts about it. Hopefully some of this will make sense.
-Being broken before 60+ people, creating that safe place for them to be broken as well because I’d rather lead out of vulnerability, rather than by putting on a performance of having it all together (cause I sure as heck don’t).
-Its learning to die to yourself daily as you come more alive in who you were created to be. I’ll be honest, sometimes it sucks.
-Its being in this constant state of not knowing what the heck you’re doing, but being too caught up in how the Spirit is moving in and through you to care.
-For me, its been about allowing the Lord to set my mind free from the preoccupation of leadership so that I’m able to just be myself and press into what He has set before me, His power and grace reminding me that He’ll take care of the rest.
-Learning to love these people entrusted to me for who they are, not for where they have been or what they have done, fighting alongside them on their journeys to freedom.
-Choosing to be bold and courageous, even when deep down you don’t want to and just wish that someone else would.
-I’ve really had to grow up and get over myself as there is too much Kingdom abounding around me to be distracted by petty, little things.
-Its trusting the Spirit inside me more than myself and what I think I know, banking on the promise that when you are weak, He is strong.
-Its venturing to new places with Jesus, experiencing new depths of intimacy and faith as you realize only His love can fill you and get you through this thing.
-Giving the Holy Spirit room to work, even if it means you’re the first one out of the boat to try walking on water. Because lets be real, ya never know whats gonna go down when the Spirit shows up.
Most importantly, its learning to simply be who I am, embracing my God-given identity as a beloved daughter. Because at the end of the day, that’s who I am. Everything else is secondary. Yes, I am a Squad Leader, and such a privilege humbles me daily, but I am so much more than that. My Father created me to be who I am and that is who I am going to be because He loves me and calls me worthy. If anything, Squad Leading has only pushed me deeper into my identity in Jesus where “being” matters more than “doing.”
Everyday I get to do what I love, with people that I love. I get to see the Kingdom come alive in them, calling out the greatness being revealed in them as sons and daughters of the King of kings. I have the privilege of getting to know them, love them, fight for them, encourage them, and walk through this outrageous journey alongside them. I get to spend my everyday with people who are literally changing the world.
Squad leading is without a doubt absolutely beautiful.
There is nothing I'd rather be doing.
There's nowhere else I'd rather be.
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Thank you!
