Hey everyone this is blog is going to be very different than you would be used to. I am going to write about how my heart feels at the moment. Yesterday morning I received the worst news I have ever received. I was informed that my best friend had been killed in a car accident in the early morning. You may ask how I may be feeling right now.. Honestly I feel like this isn't real, like someone is playing a sick joke on me or I am having to worst nightmare ever. I still have not fully grasped that this is reality. Right now I feel numb and have no feeling at all. I cried a lot yesterday morning and early afternoon, but since then I have not been able to cry. I don't know what to do at all. I have never in my life had someone this close to me pass away, so honestly I have no clue how to deal with this or how to think.. I know being with people right now is probably the best for me, so I keep making myself be around people as much as I can. Its hard though because eventually I do get by myself for a bit of time. My squad has been very supportive during this time, I appreciate it a lot. Although its not the same as it would be being with family and friends at home.
Melody Ann Parlos has been my best friend ever since I was seven. I couldn't have asked for a better best friend. Yes we had our ups and our downs. But in those sixteen years we shared so much. So many memories. I am very thankful and blessed to have had Melody in my life for the time I did. We have been through so much together, funny times, sad times, growing times, and hard times. She was eventually supposed to be my maid of honor in my wedding.. Her death is the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with. God I just thank you for the time you have given me with Melody, Lord just bless her friends and her family.
Lastly I have a request. I have a very strong desire to go home for the funeral. I feel like if I do not go I will not get complete closure on this. Its something my heart needs. The problem is being is being overseas.. Currently I am in El Salvador, and I have found out today that I have an opportunity to go home for seven days. Seven days to spend with my family, with her family, with friends; crying, grieving, and fellowship with others. This is something my heart desires. My only concern is; is having to buy my way there and back. I ask that if you feel led to help me in anyway, it would bless me so much if anyone could help me out at all. I am very thankful for those who have already messaged me with encouragement and asking if I was okay. If you would like to help me out at all you can email me at [email protected] or facebook me or my mother Tonia Slimm, or you can call my Mother at 717-370-1588. I would only be going away for seven days, the funeral is planned to be on Thursday. It will be really hard to leave my team for a week, but this is something I really need to do. I really appreciate everyone taking the time to read this and share the pain I am having. I love you all. Please pray for Melody's family and friends. God Bless Everyone. Love all of you.
