I have only been in Malaysia for 3 days now and God is already at work in my heart. I think it's interesting that He has had to take me to the other side of the world to get my attention (see scripture at the end of this blog).
Since I have crushed the lie that I am incomplete without a husband (that was the barrier between God and my heart) The Lord has been at WORK. I love how you think you've dealt with things before and Jesus is like, "No, no. There's more."
This month I am studying the book of Hosea. This morning as I was reading about how Israel turned to worshipping idols and trusting them for their prosperity I realized that's exactly what we do. In my case it was turning to men to receive the love I was longing for. Maybe for you it's that you're a workaholic and you depend on that to provide for your needs. Or maybe it's your children that you worship and live vicariously through?
I haven't turned to men in a while, but the unbelief still remained. I knew in my head that Jesus loves me, but the road to my heart has been very long.
The Lord broke through the wall around my heart this morning and said, "This love that I offer you, Cara, is the love you have been looking for your whole life." No one knows me like He does. No one can satisfy me. No one can pursue me like He can. There's no way because He knows the intimacy I long for and the intricacies of my heart like no one else. Only He knows those things and only through Him can those things be known.
I believe. I believe that no one compares to His love for me. I believe the love of Christ is greater than a mans love for me. I finally believe this is the love I've been looking for my whole life.
He is pursuing me. I don't fully understand how to receive the pursuit, but it doesn't matter. He is going to pursue me anyway. His love is purely and NATURALLY unconditional!
I don't fully understand how to walk/dwell in this love just yet. I'm okay with that because He hasn't failed me yet! He will teach me.
Where are you? Do you believe this with your heart? Do you struggle with this concept? I want to challenge you to act on it anyway!
Because Your love is greater than life my lips will praise YOU! -Psalm 63:3
Therefore I am now going to allure her. I will lead her into the desert and speak tenderly to her. There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the called of Achor a door of hope. There she will sing as in the days of her youth, as in the day she came up out of Egypt. – Hosea 2:14-17
