This is going to be a blog in which I am going to be completely honest with you on how I am feeling today. Throughout my journey of being accepted on The World Race until now there has been many ups and downs. There have been days in which I know with every ounce of my being this is what I should be doing and there are days where I feel nothing but doubt. There are days when I trust and believe it will all work out and days I break down and think nothing will work out.
Today is one of those days where I hit that moment in which I thought should I be doing this? Is this really where God has me or just where I want to be? Is the money going to come through? Am I going to be best friends with my teammates? Will everything work out?
All day I have been listening to these lies. Lies that say: Candice you aren't good enough, you won't get the money you need, this won't all work out, and this isn't what God has called you too.
Well isn't that just what Satan wants me to think. God will come back when the WHOLE world knows of him. That's exactly what i am going to do is spread the gospel through the nations. Why would Satan want me to do that? Duh…he is going to speak lies to me, discourage me and make me feel inadequate. The crazy part is God even warned me this would happen and yet I am still blindsided by it. In John 10:10 god says the thief will come to steal, kill and destroy; I have come that you may have life and have it to the full. God has asked me to go on this trip and I am going despite the barriers put in my way. In 1 John 4:4 it states You, dear children are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. Satan can speak lies to me but Gods truth is more powerful. I chose today to overcome him and overcome his weak schemes. I am empowered by Gods truth and power inside me and will continue this day forward in that mind set.
My pledge for this day forward:
-I will not listen to these lies
-Any lie spoken to me I will combat with the truth
-I will find joy in this time
-I will have peace that my God has my future in his plans
-I will trust that everything will work out according to his good and perfect plan
