Today, I want to tell you how sorry I am.
Maybe for being human,
or maybe because I use the fact that I'm human to cover up my mistakes.
And It's not okay.
To all the people I love,
I'm sorry for the times that I have know the right thing to do and still chosen the wrong thing.
I'm sorry that I knew how to love you best but tried to love myself better instead.
I'm sorry that I lied to you about that thing.
I'm sorry I yelled at you.
I'm sorry I did not trust you… that I thought you would hurt me.
I'm sorry that I believe in peace but so easily give into the temptation to argue.
I'm sorry for the walls I've built to keep you out.
I'm sorry that I don't look that much like Jesus.
I'm sorry that I'm not very good at forgiving.
To all the people who are repulsed by Christians and the church,
I'm sorry for what Christianity has become
You know, people who will go to war in a heartbeat… when Jesus says to love your enemies
people who bash the government… when Jesus says to honor and obey
People who fight taxes… when Jesus says to pay to Caesar what is his.
people who put more hope in this world.. than the one to come
I'm sorry that we don't care more about people that look different than us.
I'm sorry that we judge you before ever really getting to know you.
I'm sorry that the church looks more apathetic that compassionate.
I'm sorry for bad televangilist that make you think we are all crazyyy.
And bad pastors that care more about attendance than the poor and the lonely.
I'm sorry that some of the south has annoying church signs.
I don't say these things out of judgment,
Really, I understand.
And sometimes I am no different.
it's just we are so far from the image of Christ
and I want you to know that.
I want you to know that some people do a great job at being like Christ
but we all mess up and we all need forgiveness.
We are so imperfect.
So broken.
So wrong.
… Jesus was not like we are.
I hope you can understand
I hope you can forgive me
I hope you can forgive us.
