If I would learn to be still, I would figure out that I’m not God.
In June of last year, I was on a flight out to Georgia, about to pee my panties from nerves and, at the same time, ready to embark on the adventure of spending a summer in Peru. Which was, admittedly, the most incredible and most difficult summer of my life.
I remember feeling light headed when I stepped off the plane. Within minutes I was lost in an airport that I was unfamiliar with. In a state I was unfamiliar with. Headed to meet a group of people I was, you guessed it, unfamiliar with. And yet, as soon as I found out where I was, I walked up to those people and greeted every one of them with a hug. Ready to meet as friends, not strangers. Ready to embark on a journey, however small, with immense courage. And while I failed greatly at times, I knew I could handle it if I could just trust my new friends. If I could just trust God.
And as we prepared to head out to Peru, my team and I found ourselves, despite all differences, with a common goal. To love God and love others with all we could. It was within hours of meeting that a few of us had already begun exchanging the most hilarious stories to one another. Crying from laughter and beyond thrilled that we could already find so much joy in each others company.
Tomorrow, I step off a plane for training camp. Unfamiliar ground. Unfamiliar people. With a common goal: to love God and love others.
Hopefully I don’t pee my panties…
It is from a place of great comfort that I write these words. This week brings unknown, and It will, undoubtedly, bring about great joy and probably pain. But I find peace from the God of peace. He eases my fears and anxieties. For that, I am grateful.
It took me a while to get to this place. I sat down this week, overwhelmed by the unknown. Overwhelmed by emotions. It was in that moment that I had to make a choice to trust. Knowing He is Good and He is trustworthy. It has been difficult and yet at the same time incredibly exciting learning to trust the one who guides my steps.
I trust that He will further shatter my expectations for better things.
I trust that He will teach me, even if it’s difficult.
I trust that He will put me on a team that will love, challenge, and encourage me.
I trust that He knows what He is doing because He is God and I am not.
It’s that simple.
I can be still.
He is God.
I am not.
... and this is my bedroom/closet/bathroom stuffed into a 70 liter backpack.
Cool.
Oh, and PLEASE pray for me this week, and my squad! I hear it's an intense week and I could definitely use some prayer!
See y'all in a week.
Shalom
