Blogging.
This is the first time I've blogged by choice, and its quite intimidating, in fact, I've been at this point for about ten minutes.
ok, here we go.
This almost doesn't seem real that in a few months I'll be gone for 11, so much so that I often find myself falling back into every day living. Work during week days, hanging out with friends evenings and weekends, and once in a while pushing for support for the Race. But even through this minimal effort God is showing me He provides and even when I don't try, it doesn't mean He isn't.
For about a month I had $145.50 in my account (from myself) even after I sent out my support letters. Then one day I happened to look at my account and it was at $3,045.50! I had done nothing! I just sent out the support letter and sat like a duck. God gave me $3,000 to show me He's got this. I was undone when I saw it. It revealed my fear – I was afraid to put in all my effort, because what if I didn't suceed?
Now I see this is not about my suceeding, but following God's plan, His way – His calling on my life. And when I do this I don't need to worry about failure or doing things perfectly, but instead obey Philippians 4:6-8 because I know He will make my path straight.
The dispelling of this fear has freed me to put in all my effort. To not be afraid of coming accross as pushy or "holier than thou", but pour my heart into this Race, fully. God is good!
Psalm 34:8
Taste and see that the LORD is good. Oh, the joys of those who take refuge in him!
