I am one of two people.
Before we started the Race we all took personality tests. You know, the Myers-Briggs tests. ENFP, ISFJ,ESTP… they all mean the same thing: We are all completely different yet the same. I have taken this test many times the first time I was an INFP. The last time I took the test(a week ago) I was an ENFJ
On our way from Nairobi, Kenya to Kathmandu, Nepal we had a 12 hour layover in Qatar. That meant that Qatar Airlines put us up in a 5-star hotel for the night. Since we had such a long layover there are a few planers on our squad. So an evening was planned with shuttles to take people to some of the more famous and neat places Qatar had to offer. Now this meant being up most of the night(after an already long travel day including busing in from Nakuru, 3 hours away from the airport in Nairobi, and a 5 hour flight to Qatar) and being on the move. I had two choices: Be an introvert or be an extrovert. I have learned a lot about myself over the last 9 months. I need alone time. I need a few moments to breath. I need silence. He speaks in the silence to me. But I love to be with people. I love being apart of something bigger than me. I love having goodness, and life spoken over me and into me. And I love to speak it back. I am very much a split person. Down to the very last moment, I couldn’t decide. Do I choose an evening of showers, Internet time, Jesus time and (much needed)sleep? Or do I go out and enjoy being in a city I will most likely never come back to unless it is another 12 hour layover? Do I be in a group and explore the city? Do I be alone?
As I sat in my hotel room after my long hot shower I thought “Maybe this is His gift to me. He knew how badly I needed to just be alone. He gave me a roommate that would be out on the town this evening.” So my choice no longer was introvert, extrovert. My choice was to see this as the gift it was. Accept that some times I need to be alone, in His silence more than anything else. Maybe next time I’ll join the group. But that night, I needed to just sit and be.
