It’s kinda late. Worn out. I wanted to make this short. I’ve been thinking a lot of what to share with you. This way I will hopefully condense it and offer the last couple weeks of my life in a concentrated dose.
Obviously, I am back in the states. After four of, possibly, the best months I’ve ever had I flew back to Georgia after squad leading the World Race K-squad. I completely fell in love with each of them. I miss them dearly and pray for them everyday.
Coming home to the states was a good thing. Great thing actually. Hard. Didn’t anticipate the hard. But it’s a good hard.
I didn’t have a plan. God showed me some things while I was still with my kids. (And by kids I mean my Racers which come with an average age of about 24.) I knew I was promised Africa but now wasn’t my time. From that I knew God still had something in mind for just me. I knew I needed a time away from programs and the obligatory responsibility of working in ministry. I wanted to simply love Jesus and love others. Kinda like a break. Kinda a jump into something new.
I want to live by faith. Every day. All the time. Different country. Same God. What’s the difference? In a way I wanted – and still do sometimes – to prove to everyone that God is God and He’s still in the game of doing miracles, bringing Kingdom, and showing glory. Sorry, I need to learn to relax. Give it up again and let God do His God thing. I don’t need to prove anything. It’s His glory. Working on it…
Right before New Year I met up with some friends in Michigan. Long story, short – I chatted with an old friend of mine. Same passion for Jesus. Similar desire to seek God on a daily basis…not just when we’re expected to. Two weeks later I found myself sitting on her couch. We’ve been roommates for a month now.
I moved to Indiana in a cold city outside Indianapolis. Hard. But loving it! This is where I am now. Without family close. Without a job. Without familiarity. Without comfortable. Without any idea what each day holds. GOD IS FAITHFUL. In all His greatness and faithfulness, I know God knows what He’s doing. And, ha, He’s bringing me closer and closer to His heart everyday.
A beautiful pain I wish I could explain in words…
