Yes, I know it is a Lady Gaga song and it is most definitely not talking about God but I have had it in my head for weeks. It all started one when night I couldn’t stop singing the song in my head as a fell asleep. I keep picturing myself in the darkness on the edge of this beautiful silvery blue light swirling around and around. I stood on the outside looking at it, longing to be a part of such beauty. I supposed I could jump in and be immersed in it, a part of it, surrounded by or I could cautiously stick just a figure or hand in it. Or I could just stand there looking at it.
I was struck by the tragedy of being on the edge of glory, so close to something that is all-access by never having the courage to jump in and experience it. I could choose to stay in darkness because I knew what it was. I knew it was safe. But darkness is never safe, unless you are hiding from something.
Jumping into God’s presence is like jumping into a swirling light in the darkness. I think God lets us have control of how much or how little of His presence and glory we let into our lives. I began to feel how badly God wants me to let Him in completely. It is a frightening prospect. I can control staying in the darkness and I can control jumping into God’s presence, but when I jump in with both feet, I no longer have control of ANYTHING.
And that is when ANYTHING becomes possible.
It may be frightening, but it won’t be tragic… like standing on the edge of glory.
It’s hard to feel the rush, to brush the dangerous. I’m gonna run right to, to the edge with you so where we can both fall far in love. I’m on the edge of glory, and I’m hanging on a moment of truth. Out on the edge of glory, and I’m hanging on a moment with you…I’m on the edge of glory
