It’s been a hard transition from training camp to life in St Louis. I am so ready to just bust out of this town. I love the people here they shaped the person I am today. They showed me so much love during a very hard time in my life, but I am ready for this new adventure to begin. Of course I know I am who I am wherever I am, but I look forward to embracing the 6 people God has put together to make up Team Sol as well as the 73 other people that make up the P squad.
All this idle time in St Louis gets my mind thinking and before too long I am tired, overwhelmed and ready to isolate. I forget who I am. At training camp I had so much peace and a sense of this is where I belong. For the first time I really embraced my belovedness and that I am daughter of God. There were so many people speaking life over me that their was no room for doubt or fear. I knew that my life had purpose.
Being in St Louis has been overwhelming. I have a lot to do before I leave and my two old friends doubt and fear are creeping back in. I’m forgetting who I am and I feel all the lies surrounding me.
Despite the past two weeks I woke up today with purpose. I remembered the great time I had a day before training camp with two lovely ladies of the O squad Brittany Priess and Sydney Sample. God brought to my mind the lyrics from the song The Cave by Mumford and Sons, ” I know my call despite my faults and despite my growing fears”
These were the words I clung to in Georgia and it sure didn’t hurt that Sydney made a Sharpie tattoo reminder on my arm. Maybe I need to break out the sharpie again so I don’t forget that I know my call. I know He is doing great things in my life. I know He will provide all my emotional and financial needs. I need to remind myself of the truths I so easily forget. I need to marinate in the fact that I am the beloved daughter of God and He is going to take care of me he always has. I am here for a purpose and July 5th I will board the plane to Santo Domingo, Dominican Republic knowing this is his plan.
In the meantime I am in St Louis and could really use your prayers. Pray that I would remember who I am. Pray that I would be open to the words God is speaking to me. Pray that I remember it starts here this is month 1. I’m a World Racer in St Louis and there are plenty of people here that need love and hope. Pray for my financial needs and if you feel led contact me or click the “support me” link on the left.
